Sad Surrender Dai/Jaehee PWP NC-17

Jaehee walked slowly down the small hallway that led to the bathroom he shared with his mother. He entered the room and regarded himself in the mirror. He saw a boy with sad eyes, sad shadowed eyes. Sighing he began pulling off his clothes throwing them on the floor. He was just too tired to make the clothes hamper and besides his mother wouldn’t be home for two more days. Plenty of time to clean up by then.

He climbed into the shower soaped up quickly intent on getting out and into bed as soon as he could. Though once under the warm water he just let it beat down on tight sore muscles. Finally, feeling as if he was going to fall asleep under the stream of water, he quickly shampooed and rinsed off.

Since his mother wasn’t home and there was no need for modesty he hadn’t closed the door. After a quick toweling off of his body and hair he threw the wet towel on the floor as well. ‘I’m a rebel tonight,’ he thought to himself smiling wryly at his reflection.

Jaehee was utterly exhausted and he could lay pretty much all the blame for that on Dai Lee. He winced. Once again he was thinking about the one person he didn’t *want* to think about. Jaehee had never been under stress like this before. Of course, losing his father had been horrible, but he had been so young that he suffered more for his mother now, rather than himself. He wasn’t the kind of person who handled stress well. That was obvious from his frequently being sick when confronted with yet another one of Dai’s “escapades”.

He had never asked for this confusion. This utter undoing of his heart and soul. Dai made him feel things he’d never dreamed were possible. He was like no one else and Jaehee had never imagined that someone like Dai even existed. The first time Jaehee had ever laid eyes on Dai as scared as he had been for Yooneun and himself he had felt somehow drawn to the other boy. In that first encounter with Dai, Jaehee had seen something he’d never thought of before; he had seen another male as… beautiful. The beauty of the Devil himself sent from Hell to tempt mere mortals and steal their souls.

Before Dai he had just been a “good” boy happy to do well in school and keep out of trouble, so his mother wouldn’t have to worry. A “good” boy with a little crush on a sweet and innocent girl. He stopped himself immediately from thinking about Eunhyung.

Walking into his bedroom, he dug through his drawers for a pair of boxers and an old t shirt, his usual sleepwear. Dressing quickly he stretched lazily his back cracking loudly. He giggled a bit stupidly at that for some reason, then finally slipped between the cool sheets. Sighing blissfully his hand reached out from under the covers to fumble with and finally turn out the light. He was asleep within a few minutes.

Jaehee had no idea that someone else, namely Dai Lee had stolen his way into the apartment he shared with his mother and had been surreptitiously watching him from his hiding place behind Jaehee‘s bedroom door.

When Dai was sure that Jaehee was asleep he stripped down to his boxers. His plan was simple. He hadn’t been able to get through to Jaehee by begging for another chance, actually showing up for class and doing his homework for God’s sake! He’d even enlisted the help of that idiot Nagi to help with attempted bribery. What a freaking disaster that had been!

Every attempt had bombed, but Dai refused to give up. What would get him back into Jaehee’s good graces? Sex, of course! No matter how angry Jaehee was at him there was no way he’d turn down what Dai would be soon offering. Nagi *had* been useful in one way. He’d told Dai that Jaehee’s mother was going out of town on business. Bingo.

Stealthily, he approached the bed and leaning over it. He carefully pulled the comforter away from Jaehee’s body. He bent down, the position somewhat awkward, but the reward worth it, and began softly kissing the other boy’s neck. One hand slide gently under his shirt searching for Jaehee’s nipples. Dai rubbed the tip of his thumbs over them causing each one to harden. He carefully sat on the edge the bed and continued kissing his way down Jaehee’s neck, smiling against his skin when the boy let out a low little sound of pleasure his dark eyelashes fluttering open. He pulled away to look down at Jaehee’s face.

Jaehee just looked at Dai, eyes unfocused and bewildered. “Wh- what? Dai, what the hell!” Suddenly fully awake, Jaehee struggled to sit up, but Dai pushed him down. Jaehee strained against Dai trying to push the other boy away.

“Get off me!” Jaehee panicked knowing how much stronger Dai was than him and how completely unpredictable he could be.

Why was the other boy here, touching him? Jaehee’s stomach clenched in fear. Was Dai going to rape him? Knowing Dai it was entirely possible.

“Anybody ever give you a blowjob before, Jaehee?” Dai leaned in close to see Jaehee’s reaction; his own expression a mixture of uncertainty and lust.

“What!” Jaehee’s dark eyes widened in complete shock at the question.

“Well?” Even without much light Dai could tell Jaehee was blushing, probably his usual shade of tomato red.

“Th--that’s none of your business,” Jaehee’s sexual experience amounted to a few chaste kisses shared with Eunhyung and of course a few less chaste ones with Dai. He didn’t even own any dirty magazines, since he was terrified that his mother would find them.

“That means no,” Dai sat up smiling. “But don’t worry, that‘s all about to change.”

All of a sudden Jaehee felt himself wanting to have Dai do *that* to him more than anything he had ever wanted before. Jaehee still struggled if he let Dai do this to him, he knew it would only lead to more confusion and pain. But he wasn’t a saint and he was already hard, filled with anticipation.

“Come on Jaehee let me blow your mind, you don‘t even have to touch me.” Just lay back and enjoy the ride ok?”

“No.” Jaehee begged unconvincingly. His dark eyes met Dai’s and Jaehee wondered again how someone so beautiful could have such darkness inside.

“I just want to make you feel good, Dai whispered pushing up Jaehee’s t- shirt to expose two pebble hard nipples. He bent his head to suckle one and Jaehee moaned half in shock, half in pleasure.

“N-no,” Jaehee knew he wasn’t even fooling himself. When Dai began working on the other one he stopped even pretending to fight. Dai sighed softly in relief as he moved down Jaehee’s chest and stomach. Jaehee’s eyes rolled back in his head in breathless anticipation of Dai’s next move.

“Hey, scoot down.” Dai suddenly ordered instead of doing what Jaehee had been certain he was about to do.

“Huh?” Jaehee looked at Dai uncomprehendingly, he sounded both breathless and whiny.

Dai smiled devilishly, “Scoot down to the end of the bed.”

Jaehee’s brain had turned to mush, but he was cognizant enough to move as requested and to prop himself shakily upon his elbows. His eyes almost popped out of his head as he watched in disbelief as Dai *knelt* down on the floor in front of him.

Dai’s expression suddenly became very serious. “I want you to know I’ve never gotten down on my knees for anyone else before. Jaehee just frantically nodded ready to agree with just about anything Dai said at that moment. All worries about letting Dai back into his life were gone for now. He had only one thing on his mind.

Dai carefully pulled down his boxers and Jaehee gasped in relief. He felt so vulnerable yet powerful at the same time seeing Dai on his knees between his legs about to do *that* to him.

He blushed as Dai looked at him. Jaehee knew from sneaking peeks at other boys in the showers at school he had nothing to be ashamed of, but what if Dai wasn‘t impressed?

“Nice, *very* nice,” Dai murmured pulling Jaehee’s legs apart wider so he could better access his cock .

Dai gripped Jaehee’s hips again with strong hands and holding them firmly. "Try to hold still," he whispered, and then pressed his tongue to the tip of Jaehee’s cock, trailing it slowly down.

“Oh!” Jaehee gasped closing his eyes in shock at the sight of Dai *really* doing *that* to him. Then Dai stopped and Jaehee’s eyes flew back open in distress.

“Hey, look at what I’m doing, Dai smiled up from between Jaehee’s legs, licking his lips, and Jaehee stared helplessly into those beautiful eyes.

“It‘s even hotter knowing you‘re watching me,” Dai whispered

Jaehee felt himself grow harder, which should have been impossible at that point, at those words. Dai gave him a mischievous look as he licked his way down the shaft once again. Jaehee was thankful that Dai had a very strong grip on him, because at the touch of that tongue his hips had bucked beyond his control. Dai’s tongue, his mouth, rough and hot and wet. All the way down to the base and then back up, slowly, teasingly, then Dai took all of Jaehee’s cock into his mouth. Jaehee couldn't move, and he was losing his mind, the feel of Dai’s mouth on him, sucking him! His hands grasped convulsively at the sheets, before lifting shakily to touch Dai’s soft blond hair. The sight of that head moving between his legs. Jaehee tried to last longer not wanting to embarrass himself by coming so quickly, not wanting *this* to ever end. He closed his eyes, trying to concentrate on the soft strands moving through his fingers.

“Oh, oh… please, please.” Jaehee’s body trembled his hands fisted in Dai’s hair uncontrollably he panted feeling… he could barely say what he was feeling, it was unbelievable, unbearable.

“Ah, ah,” his body seized and he came. Jaehee stared down at Dai dazed. “I--I’m sorry that I didn’t… he trailed off in embarrassment. Dai’s eyes glittered, his cheeks were red, his full lips wet.

“It’s ok, I liked it.” Dai licked his lips and winked.

“Oh, ok,” Jaehee took in a deep breath, then released it shakily falling back onto the bed. He was beyond rational thought only able to lie there trembling.

“Fuck, I‘ve wanted to do that to you for so long, Dai whispered almost

reverently, you’re so beautiful. Jaehee sat up and found his underwear and t-shirt and quickly dressed himself.

Dai glanced down at his own soaking wet boxers.

“Shit, what a mess, I’ll be right back.” Dai laughed happily as he

ran to the bathroom. Jaehee watched him go and then as the realization that Dai had… Oh, God!

Dai was in the shower and he would be out soon and expecting… what would he be expecting? Jaehee knew the answer to that. Dai would consider that they were back together and everything was fixed. He’d said that Jaehee didn’t have to do anything in return, but what if Dai really wanted to do more and what did more mean exactly?

Jaehee was freaking out and his mind raced. What were the chances he could get away with pretending *this* hadn’t just happened? Absolutely none, of course. He could leave, go to Naru’s or somewhere leave before Dai came back.

He began tearing up. He just felt so overwhelmed by everything that had happened the past few weeks and now this!

Dai reentered the room completely naked and jumped on the bed laughing like an idiot. “Jaehee, come on, get up here!”

“No.” Jaehee hid his face, refusing to look at the other boy. Of course, Dai wasn’t at all embarrassed. He, in fact, was still laughing jumping up and down like a little kid.

“Come on, man,” Dai reached down to grab Jaehee by the hand, “if we break the bed I’ll buy ya a new one, ok?”

“Stop, it, let go!” Jaehee was almost yelling now.

“You, ok?” Dai sat down on the bed next to Jaehee looking at the other boy with a mixture of fear and concern.

Jaehee didn’t reply, he had started to cry.

“Just stop… I-I want to go to sleep now,” Jaehee choked out pushing Dai away when he tried to embrace him.

“Ok,” a more subdued Dai agreed quietly. “But, just tell me one thing are you crying because you’re mad at me or because me blowing you… you know freaked you out?”

Silence, then Jaehee sighed. “Both I guess.”

“Ok, let’s just go to sleep,” Dai, serious now, kissed him softly on the lips.

“Good night, Jaehee.” he whispered turning out the light.

Jaehee simply turned towards the wall, moving over to allow Dai more room.

Finito